So today I am packing to go on a trip.  Part of the trip is for fun, to visit my sister.  But before I can do that I must go to a hearing with the social security disability administration.  Now for any of you who don’t realize, the social security administrations disability division is not the most efficient right now.  This hearing has been three years, and many stages,  in the making.  And after this three years, the hearing is expected to last 30-45 minutes.

A judge from California, my lawyer, a court reporter, and myself will meet for 30-45 minutes.  At this hearing my lawyer will present to a judge the reasons why I am no longer able to work.  Now these reasons  are obvious to anyone who knows me, but this judge doesn’t know me.  He will determine if what has happened to me in the past 3 1/2 years has caused me to become unable to work.  30 minutes to determine my life’s outcome.  Now that seems a little harsh doesn’t it?

When one puts it that way it sure does!  Well after this week of struggling with it I look at it differently now.  This one judge from California isn’t determining my life’s outcome.  That has already been done.  My body may have failed me, but God has not.  My life may not be the one I planned it out to be, but God knows exactly what He is doing even when I do not.  Regardless of what might happen on Tuesday, or even after that, my life’s outcome cannot be changed.  One judge may be able to decide part of how my life will be lived, but he will not change the outcome of it.  The outcome was determined when Christ took on the cross for me, and my hope lies in a future that has been assured for me through Him. (Heb 10:23)

4 Comments

1. 

   Great point, Kelly! Wish I could always look at hard times in my own life that way! I will be praying for you.

   Comment by Deanna in CO — June 14, 2009 @ 12:40 pm

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   Keep in the Word, my friend. Remember that our living God is always working through us and you are a definite example of the creativity of our Creator. I believe that you are correct in that no one holds our destiny in their hands – when we make the decision to have a relationship with God through Christ, we have a higher authority in which we are held accountable. We know a loving and faithful Father. Kelly J Eveleth

   Comment by Kelly J Eveleth — June 14, 2009 @ 1:52 pm

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   You know how many prayers are traveling with you. In 7 months I have seen some of your struggles and the strength of your spirit never wavers. It may seem to you that isn’t so, but like you said, the decision has already been made. When I’m having a pity party, I think of you. You DO have the strength to get through those 30 minutes. We, the Body of Christ, should & will be holding you up if your knees feel weak, if you spirit seems low. Know that not only does God have your back, so do we. Love you, Kelly. 🙂

   Comment by Shellie (baylormum) — June 14, 2009 @ 2:06 pm

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   That’s awesome news!

   Comment by Pokinatcha — June 16, 2009 @ 4:52 pm

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