By: Shellie (baylormum)

Shellie (baylormum) — Fri, 29 May 2009 15:39:45 +0000

I know this is no where near what you are living with, but it relates so much. My life in recovery is a lot like what you described. I had to go before my licensing board, with a not-so-great advocate. It was a horrible experience. I can look back some 2 years later & remember that fear I had of those people, my equals. They have no clue about how to deal with an addict.
Two years later, it still gives me pause. The medical director the Board uses is a recovering alcoholic, but he doesn’t attend these hearings. I don’t believe most of the Board members have a clue about the mind of an addict. None. It’s like I was talking the other day with a mutual friend (the one who calls her kids by numbers) & trying to explain the step process of relearning how to live “without the use of drugs”. It is a process, but explaining it to non-addicts isn’t always easy.
The most important thing is that even through my active addiction, God NEVER left me. My heart was so spiritually void when I was in that state! It is so awesome to think of God carrying me when I couldn’t walk the walk. I feel I have learned so much about myself & my relationship with God. My spiritual void is disappearing. Like MLK said “Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase”. And Napoleon “Victory belongs to the most perservering”. We have such a glorious Father & He is so good to us.
I’m glad you finally have your day (one of many, I know) “in court”. I hate that you have had to use a lawyer. You are you and nobody can take that away. You may be “different”, but you are still such a great Princess Warrior.
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By: Deanna

Deanna — Sat, 16 May 2009 23:01:28 +0000

Kelly, I’m so sorry to read about these new problems. I can only imagine how frustrated you must be. Glad to hear the treatment is helping with your face. Our prayers are with you, and with Mike and Bryan too.

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